Sexy, Skinny, and Starving: Holiday update +thinspo

"You want me to eat thanksgiving meal..and then leftovers?!"

Lets all just take a moment to exhale. It was a crazy couple of days, but the most fattening holiday is over and I, and hopefully you, can scurry back to our safe havens and starve our hearts away. Yesterday was my first day back on eating normally, my family brought me to taco bell and I got a chicken soft taco, opened it up and ate the lettuce only. I'm sad but slightly relieved to say I got out of the two thanksgiving with only 3 LBs gained. So if I dont eat today they will hopefully be gone by tuesday. I can't wait to go back to my dorm room where junk food is non existent and me and my roomie strive for empty perfection. But there's a catch-- my dad wants to take me grocery shopping today. Fuck fuck fuck. I'll try and stick with cans of soup and fruit as much as I can without giving him any clues, because this time I'm a much smarter dieter then I was in the past. In the past my family would catch on and make me gain weight in like a week. This time, they don't expect anything. And they can't see me when I'm away at college, they can't see the progress I'm making.

So heres the plan. My next break starts DEC. 15. That gives me 20 days. If I eat below 400 on each of these days, I can be down to 114 in 20. Fingers crossed! Maybe these past few days of eating pure shit have been good because I'll drop weight right past that 120 plateu I dreaded oh so much.