I don't have the best memory. Others can remember events from elementary, classes, friends, and funny stories. I blocked everything out. Most of middle school and high school. Every now and then I get the fondest feeling of memory, almost like deja vu. It'll happen at the most random times, and just as soon as the feeling came it leaves. It's usually the weather, walking in front of my house on an autumn day brings back a feeling of childhood. Or hearing the song doing it wrong brings back a feeling of heartbreak I don't remember having, you have to love to have your heart broken. But when I get these deja vu feelings I want to stay in that moment, trapped in a warm cloth of familiarity.  Alas it is over, the warmth leaves, and I'm back at a crossroad. No exit sign, no path  previously taken, just the present or the unknown.

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It's been awhile

Happy new year blog!

It's been awhile! The holidays got the best of me. I was up to 123 at one point.. now I'm back down to 115/116 and feeling like a heffer. My preset goal was 115 by the 15th of January, and if things keep going as good as they are I should be down to 110 by then. Must avoid all sugar.


Each month I'm going to give up a junk food. Which mean I cannot have it again that year.

This month: Muffins. The ones at my school coffee shop are ultra delish, and at least 500 cal. No more for me.


I'm also vegetarian now. I want to be vegan by summer. Its alot of work though, because I have to by my own food at home. Vegetarian is a great new excuse to not eat though when around family.